So I’m going to do it… and it’s leaving me queasy. I’m going to apply for the Directorship of the organization I work for. After asking for input from friends, family, my significant other and anyone else that would weigh in, it’s clear that I’d be an imbecile if I didn’t apply for this position. I can always turn it down, right? If I do get it, there’s nothing that states that I’ve become a slave and have relegated the rest of my life to this position. I can use it as a means of personal growth, as a means of increasing my stores and helping to propel myself toward that pastoral life that I crave.
At the same time, it’s scary. Very scary. I’m stepping outside of my comfort level to purposely take on more stress in my life. I’m applying for a position that makes me do at least one thing that I’m terrible at: asking for money (aka: fundraising). I’m nervous, apprehensive and uneasy about this whole process. But what’s the worst that could happen?
If I get the job, I’ll be forced to challenge myself. To grow. To take on new responsibilities. If I don’t get the job, I’ll continue on with my current work as membership and conference director.
What’s the best that could happen? If I get the job, I could make more money, expand my skills and qualifications, gain new-found passion for my career. If I don’t get the job, I’ll continue on with my current work, and only have about 8 weeks of stress per year. 🙂
So I’m going to suck it up and apply. It’s a win-win situation, even if it’s scary.
Wish me luck.